Enlightening Perspectives: Sexual Violence within the Muslim Community

Enlightening Perspectives: Sexual Violence within the Muslim Community

interviewer | hana qwfan


Sexual violence has been an issue that is rarely ever addressed within our Muslim communities. Often times, when it is addressed, it is often misunderstood and mistreated. It has become a stigma in many localities, and because of the taboo surrounding it, it often hurts our victims instead of providing them with support. I had the amazing opportunity to interview the wonderful Mahreen Alam, a representative of HEART (Health Education, Advocacy, Research and Training) Women and Girls, back in November of 2017. HEART is an organization that aims to bring aid and support to victims of sexual violence within our Muslim community. Along with these objectives, the organization also aims to promote sexual health through education, research, and training. They perform a fantastic job of breaking the stigma, validating our victims, and bringing overall awareness to the issues that Muslim communities are too afraid to discuss. The nonprofit organization of female empowerment is based in Chicago, but you will find many resources across the US and Canada. I myself have learned so much from this organization, and I’m confident that you all can learn something too.


A special thank you to Mahreen, who I first briefly met at MSA West’s Servant Leader Summit this past August when she delivered  a presentation on HEART organization. She has been incredibly kind and captivating during this exchange. Without further ado, here is the interview:  


Q: What would be the most important things to do when a loved one approaches you about their sexual harassment/abuse experience for the first time?


Believe them when they come forward.                                

It takes an incredible amount of courage for a victim to report sexual violence. A majority of sexual assaults, approximately 68%, are never reported to law enforcement. Research suggests that this number is even higher in communities of color - anywhere from 85%-90% of survivors do not disclose.  We need to support survivors, and make them feel safe to seek resources, as this is crucial for their healing and gives others the strength and hope to come forward in the future.

Positive Language.                     

What you say to a survivor can have a profound effect on a their ability to heal. Validating a survivor’s experience and feelings by telling them things like “I’m sorry this happened,” “it’s ok to feel angry,” and “you’re safe here” may seem insignificant, but can have a tremendous impact on a survivor.

Empower your loved one.                    

Sexual assault and other sexual violence crimes take away the individual’s power. Encourage your loved one to trust his/her instincts, but do not pressure him/her to do anything he/she is not yet ready to. do. It may take time for survivors to seek help, as they feel as though they have lost control over their life. Meet them where they are [already] rather than tell them what they need to be doing. Giving them back that control is crucial so encourage them to make decisions that help them move forward.

Understand barriers to disclosing. Survivors find it difficult to disclose. They may feel guilt or shame, or fear their perpetrator. They may be worried they won’t be believed, or that they’ll be blamed for the abuse. Understanding barriers to disclosure can help make you a better supporter. Upon disclosing, often victims face many barriers including media scrutiny, retaliation against themselves and their families, and re-traumatization.

Create a safe space.

One of the first aspects of a survivor’s life to be compromised after the occurrence of sexual violence is his/her emotional and physical safety. Talk to your loved one about what makes him/her feel safe in their surroundings, interactions, and relationships, and then work together to create that space of refuge in your home. Make sure you enlist a team of trusted individuals who can commit to spending some time with them.

Be mindful of the unique challenges that Muslims face.

Because of Islam’s emphasis on modesty, privacy, and purity, many Muslim survivors may feel an unusual amount of shame, guilt, and self-blame. They may also be preoccupied with anxieties regarding the future, such as their ability to get married and live normal lives. The community may also engage in certain forms of victim-blaming using the above as motivations. Try your best to minimize these emotions and explain to your loved one that there are a number of strong Islamic principles that are supportive of survivors, and that emphasis on purity and privacy never supersedes the safety of another individual.     

Plan self-care.                                               

Ensure that both you and the individual you are supporting have a plan for self-care. When an individual is dealing with a crisis as emotionally draining as sexual assault, it is easy to forget or neglect one’s own self-care. Emotional self-care is also crucial and can mean different things for different people, such as seeing a licensed counselor, journaling, or partaking in meditation or other relaxation exercises. Ensure that your loved one is engaging in emotional self-care on a consistent basis.

Engage in your own self-care. Supporting a loved one through this process involves vicarious trauma. It is easy to get wrapped up in supporting your loved one. It is crucial to make time for yourself as well. If you do not take care of yourself, you will be unable to sustain taking care of others.


Q: What are some things that we can do in order to clear misconceptions about sexual harassment within the Muslim community (especially since it's considered taboo)?

The Muslim community is not immune to the struggles that any other community faces. There is a serious lack of access to culturally-sensitive information and resources, and additional  apprehension of seeking out those tools due to the shame associated with discussing sex and sexual violence. That is the basis of why HEART Women & Girls was founded - in order to break this silence. HEART seeks to provide a safe space to come together—both virtually and physically—to learn about our  bodies, exchange health information, and become resources of health information for each other and our communities.

Education is key; for far too long there has been a lack of culturally-sensitive and accurate sexual health education. Make a commitment today to educating yourself and your families on sexual violence. HEART provides in-person sexual health workshops at your local mosque, college Muslim Student Association (MSA), or even community center, as well as an online virtual resource center catered to all ages from adolescents to adults. This is a great way to provide culturally-sensitive sexual health information and even open up individuals to resources they didn’t even know that had access to!

Change in our families and our homes will come as soon as we begin to have open conversations about abuse and sex, and as soon as we empower our children to protect themselves and speak up if they are victimized. Have safe, open conversations about sexual violence in your homes, mosques, and communities at large, including reaching out to social workers, law enforcement authorities, media, and public institutions as necessary.

Commit to bringing resources and tools to build and empower your community. Typically the leadership and staff at faith institutions are often the first responders to incidents of sexual violence. Hence, it is absolutely crucial for them to have the know-how on the policies, procedures, tools and expertise to be able to respond to survivors and allegations in a victim-centric manner that is free from stigma. There are many organizations who provide these trainings such as HEART and Peaceful Families Project. Change at the community level can only happen with an attitude and commitment to challenge stigmas and behaviors that enable violence and do not hold perpetrators accountable. As a collective community, we must replace blame, shame and stigma with openness, support and healing.

Work to create empowered, inclusive, and safe spaces. Build the kind of space in your community in which individuals will know that their privacy will be honored and survivors feel supported, empowered, and safe. Understand that everyone’s situation is unique, and the challenges they face in such circumstance are very complex. It’s important to have built pillars of support and safety so that survivors are able to care of themselves and their families well before the professional, legal and social services enter the equation.

Do not silence survivors. Validate and affirm, do not question the validity of their story. Don’t dismiss their feelings. Give them permission to feel the emotions they are feeling – whether it’s anger, sadness, frustration.


Q: Can you give me any resources that I can provide in the article in case someone is experiencing this? Such as contact information to the organization, office locations, etc. ?


Yes! There is a wealth of information that is accessible online the HEART virtual resource center at heartwomenandgirls.org. First of all, you should know and utilize the resources in your community.    There are a number of resources in the community that are extremely useful as you help support your loved one, such as:                    

Rape crisis centers                        

Local and national hotline                        

Sexual assault therapists & counselors on campus.

UC Berkeley CARE Advocates’ Office: can be reached at the Main Office: (510) 642-1988 and the 24/7 Care Line: (510) 643-2005                


Q: Is there anything else that you would like to inform us about in regards to HEART?


The opportunity to be involved with an organization that  sticks so strongly to its values and works so strictly for the community has been one of the most growing and impactful experiences for me. Especially now, it has become apparent that we as individuals need to be more committed as ever to being agents of change within our communities.


HEART is looking for college interns! If you are interested, be sure to contact either me at mahreenalam@gmail.com or Sahar Pirzada sahar@heartwomenandgirls.org. HEART also offers other ways to get involved! If you feel as though you would like to work as a trainer and give in person workshops, work in research or advocacy, email Sahar Pirzada at sahar@heartwomenandgirls.org. Be sure to subscribe to their newsletter to keep up to speed with this inspiring team of determined women.


This interview was written as a companion to the writer’s print article, “Sexual Harassment and the Muslim Community,” published in the Fall 2017 Print Issue of Threads Magazine, available here. Flip to Page 28 to read her intriguing piece.


headshot courtesy | mahreen alam


A Summer in China: A Travel Memoir

A Summer in China: A Travel Memoir

words | salmana shah


Last summer, I had the opportunity to travel abroad alone. I look back at my experience with fondness and a wistful sense of longing. This travel memoir explores my adventures in Southeastern China and the feelings provoked by the intrepid experience.


At the height of my sophomore slump last year, I decided I would visit my Aunt in China. She was researching at a university in Southeast China and I was emerging out of a turbulent school year with a complex sense of isolation which I felt could only be mediated by time away from my world back home.



When I landed in Fuzhou, Fujian for my short two-week trip, I felt slightly homesick and completely disoriented. The fact that no one knew English only reminded me that I definitely should have learned some Mandarin prior to my trip. However, I would later learn that language is less important in guiding us than we presume it to be.


As I scrambled to find my luggage in the midst of the type of uproarious chaos that characterizes typical airports, I felt an eerie sense of excitement that comes with plunging into the unknown. In this case, the unknown was a seemingly random place I had very little knowledge about, beyond what a number of Wikipedia articles about the region had taught me. Embarking on this journey  would eventually convey to me a sort of reality I would never have found in articles, online, or anywhere else in the world.


I can only vaguely recall my first night in Fuzhou. My aunt’s apartment was small, as most units are in the beige-yellow high-rises that dominate much of the skyscape in China’s urban areas. I fell asleep fast that night and the next morning woke up to a view unlike any I had seen before.


The colossal residential towers were monotonous in style, often fluctuating between a light beige and a deep yellow. Below were well-kempt streets which diverged into dirt backroads. It was the type of landscape you read about in twentieth century novels predicting future cityscapes with all the galore of Swiss-French architect Le Corbusier’s dream of high rises actualized in an east-Asian setting. Perhaps this stood out to me most because of my major in Urban Planning; I spent a great deal of time considering the resulting dynamics of this unique and overwhelming arrangement.


The fact that everything was clustered nearby also meant that there were abundant activities and sites to see. Most days my aunt would show me around, but when she had to work, I would venture out alone and meet her later in the city. Journeying alone was quite tricky. Because so few people knew English or had never learned it, the only place I could communicate with anyone was at Starbucks, which meant that ordering food comprised of a series of gestures; pointing to pictures and motioning to confirm there was no pork in the food. However, the majority of people whom I had interacted with were considerately polite about my inability to speak Mandarin, a refreshing change from interactions I’ve witnessed in the English world where the English language reigns supreme and marginalizes those who can’t conform.



The communication barrier did, however, make me feel further isolated since I spent much time mulling over my wish of knowing what was happening around me. It seemed that all the scenes I witnessed fused into one private scene that existed in my mind but that I would never have access to. While that general feeling of detachment was bemusing, it offered an opportunity to appreciate the linguistic barrier which reminded me that I was both a visitor in this country as well as in this universe.


Among my favorite sights in Fujian were the numerous parks and Buddhist temples, which offered a sense of solitude against the city’s dynamically urban landscape. They were my favorite retreat because they permitted me to be somewhat alone to enjoy the subtropical humidity and the various fauna and flora present amongst the urban chaos. My reclusive moments allowed me to revel in a sense of peace I wasn’t previously familiar with. By finding serenity in my self-inflicted desolation, I came to terms with the ubiquitous feeling of isolation that I carried here and at home.


In the grand scheme of things, I was nothing but a small person passing by. Away from the stresses of life back home and in a new place where no one knew or understood me, I was able to merely exist. I offered Fuzhou nothing and in exchange I was able to experience a beautiful and dynamic city characteristic of a country so unique, that its presence, and mine within it, still remains comparable to nothing.


photos | salmana shah


 As If I Was Broken: A Personal Memoir

As If I Was Broken: A Personal Memoir

words | rabiah shere


At the age of fifteen, I told my father that I was depressed, but I set my feelings aside after he told me that kids my age don’t acquire depression. At the age of sixteen, I told my doctor that I was in a consistent state of unhappiness, but he told me that it could be “seasonal.” At the age of eighteen, I was led to believe it was ‘just me’.


At the age of twenty, everything became worse.


I’ve forgotten what happiness tastes like ever since I've lost myself through the months.


And when I say that “I’ve lost myself,” I mean that every bit of me that I once knew has shattered into bits and pieces. It's not only that I don't know where things are, but rather, everything seems to be all over the place - my emotions, my thoughts, my strength, my confidence, my hope, my faith, and my interests. I can’t seem to gain the energy to pick up everything that I’ve lost and put my old self back into what it once was.


I don’t know where these things - everything that defines my identity, that make me who I am - are; everything that built me, and everything I once held onto, so tightly, is now something I’ve suddenly lost all control of. I don’t know where they are, but I know they aren't with me. Everything I once had control of, or at least the slightest bit of control of, are no longer in my hands. Things I cannot or do not have control of, I wish I did. And things I currently have control of are what I currently convince myself to believe are fragile enough to ruin without any effort.


This is what living with depression and anxiety is like.


In a room full of people, you feel entirely alone.
Yet being alone suffocates you from the inside out.


You wish that you’d find comfort in one of the two ends by either staying at home and isolating yourself completely or going to that party and surrounding yourself with people to help you forget the mess that’s occurring inside your head.

But in reality, you know that neither of those two can truly help you.


In reality, you’d rather be at home with just one friend, but you also know that doing so means isolating that person from the party where everyone is at.


In reality, you know that what you need would be asking for a lot, burdening others, and trapping someone else to deal with your emotions.


In other words, the solution isn’t simple. With depression and anxiety, it never is.


Depression is living in the past. It’s remembering what things used to be. It’s being sad about everything, anything, and nothing.


It’s curling up into a ball, not wanting to move, but also not being able to move. It’s staying in bed all day, not because you’re lazy but because you just can’t get up. It’s crippling. It’s sighing about thirty times a day because you feel like you can’t breathe. It’s having your heart in a consistent state of heaviness because all you want to do is cry.


Anxiety is living in the future, always thinking about what’s to come. You’re always thinking about what you have to do and what’s next. With anxiety, there’s no break. Life feels like it’s going too fast and won’t pause for you. What’s defeating is that, with anxiety, you expect life to stop for you, even though rationally, you know it won’t. You constantly believe you’re going to mess up - that your mistakes will yield a catastrophic result as if the world will end by your own ruinous hands.


Anxiety is fearing change and avoiding new experiences because you fear the unexpected more than the average person would. Anxiety is connecting everything together - if one thing doesn’t go right, then everything else consequently fails. Anxiety is thinking about everything you have to accomplish in the near and far future and feeling extremely overwhelmed as a result. Anxiety is becoming hopelessly engulfed - lost - within your own thoughts.


It’s when your broodings consume you, your heart races, your breathing deepens - so much so that you can’t breathe.


You feel weak, your stomach turns, you become dizzy, you feel like crying, and somehow all of these reactions make your body numb, making you wish for someone to hold you and stabilize you because, in that moment, reality loses all sense permanently. Nothing feels real anymore. In that moment, you feel physically impaired, as if you have no control over your own body.


Anxiety and depression mean that you are always blaming yourself, always feeling like you need to be in control - not because you like it your way, but because a change of plans makes you anxious and because not knowing the unknown vexes you.

Trying to accomplish your goals becomes exhausting when every setback that may or may not be your fault results in beating yourself up.


Imagine extending your entire arm is the only act required to attain what you want, yet the one thing that cuts you short from achieving it is the finger that cannot reach far enough. How do I control that? It’s not my fault that my finger falls short.


Was it?

To be frank, it sucks to be so close to - practically at - your destination - and yet fail to accomplish your goal because of the inability to properly measure the distance. Was it even possible to measure the distance? Perhaps, it’s all about chance. But I can’t help but think - I could have done more.

That being said, with anxiety and depression, you always feel that you could have done more - should have done more.


You never really know what this sentiment feels like until you’ve experienced it.  


However, I’m opening the door because I am tired of being misunderstood.


I’m tired of being told that I am too emotional, that I “freak out” too much, that I’m ungrateful, that I am overly dramatic, hypersensitive, and always have to have it my way. I’m exhausted from being told that I'm too irritated, sad, angry - that I need to control my emotions...when I simply can’t.


For eight years prior to my clinical diagnosis of depression, I was constantly told to "fix" myself, as if I was broken in the first place. I was told this type of vulnerability was a flaw in my personality, and that I was weak and incapable of handling stress properly. I was told that my faith in Islam was diminishing, that I was being punished due to a lack of faith, that I didn’t pray enough, or recite Qur’an (the Holy Book of Islam) enough, and that I didn’t devote enough of my time to God.


I was made to believe that I was the issue. I was forced to believe that everything I felt was the result of being a bad Muslim, despite the fact that I did pray five times a day and regularly read the Qur’an.


For eight strenuous years, I was forced to believe that everything was my fault. However, ever since my diagnosis, I've known that that is a lie; my condition is not something I have brought upon myself. It is simply something I am endeavoring to control, through the help of therapy and medication.


I wish other people understood that I’m trying, that I’ve become exhausted in the process and that if they are tired of hearing about my mental illness, then they cannot fathom the courage to imagine what it’s like living with it.  


Just because I’m smiling, laughing, and having a good time does not mean I am cured.


Depression is not simply being sad 24/7; it’s internal. And on days when it does become external, I seclude myself and avoid any form of human interaction. I don’t like to project my emotions on my face and I’d rather not talk about it. I don’t want anyone to notice my mood and ask if I’m “okay” because the answer is almost always in the negative, which triggers me to cry. It’s not that I can’t trust people with my life affairs; it’s that I have a hard time leaning on others. I feel that talking about my problems burdens others. Both my anxiety and depression already put the blame on me, and I don’t wish to feel such negativity anymore than necessary.

I wish others understood that it’s not my intention to lose them as friends; I just need them to work with me. It’s taxing to work on myself and another relationship - self-care can be selfish, but it’s crucial to understand that in order to care for others, I must first care for myself.


I need to be healthy.


I just wish others understood - that I’ve forgotten what happiness tastes like and I am trying to find what I’ve lost throughout the months.


photos | rabiah shere and christine nguyen


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Little Letters - December Edition

Little Letters - December Edition

By: Aishah Mahmud


Love letters to little things in life.


Dear Rain,

        I seriously underestimated you. I assumed my twenty-minute walk to class under a light drizzle would be fine with just an umbrella and my Keds® sneakers. Never have I been more wrong. I’m thankful for only having one class on Thursday and being able to walk in my sloshing socks back to my room, where I could enjoy your beauty from my warm bed for the rest of the day.


Dear Coco,

        I apologize for both of my parents falling asleep when I took them to watch you, but you were truly the most moving cinematic masterpiece I've seen in a very long time.


Dear Discover Weekly playlist on Spotify,

        Thank you for having my back with fresh new music every week, and for curing me of my inability to not just play the same song on repeat because I can’t bring myself to find new songs when I’m studying.


Dear Peppermint Mocha from Peet’s Coffee,

        Has a better drink ever been created? You are the perfect mix of mint and chocolate, an emblem of holiday joy and warmth.


Dear Trader Joe’s stores,

        You are truly magnificent, with your rows of colorful snacks and unbeatable microwaved foods. You are my happy place.


Dear sweatpants,

        Why did I ever try to replace you with jeans? I should have realized that you were and always will be the one for me.



Dear Buzzfeed Unsolved,

        How are you so addicting? So creepy, yet so funny? So educational?


Dear Ici Ice Cream,

        I probably shouldn’t have had you in 40 degree weather, but your Earl Grey flavor was worth it.


Dear skin,

        I get that I don’t moisturize you and take care of you like I should, but please stop hurting me like this.


Dear daylight,

        I appreciate you whenever you’re here, but I miss when you were around past 5 PM.


Dear Finals Week,

        (deep breathes) Let’s do this.


Photos By: Zahra Ansari


Moffitt and Travail

Moffitt and Travail

Written By: Salmana Shah

Photos By: Sania Elahi

As finals week approaches, students everywhere are scrambling to find an empty study space. Scores of students at UC Berkeley will find themselves at Moffitt Undergraduate Library, scouting out a vacant seat or even a desolate corner to set up camp. This piece was inspired by the indefinite amount of hours I will spend cooped up in Moffitt in the coming weeks.


My computer’s bright light seethes through my tired eyes and I divert my attention away from the screen. I revel in my surroundings; everyone around me is either in a deep trance or rushedly whispering to a friend. I’m on the fifth floor of Moffitt Library. It’s almost 11 PM, and it feels as though I’ve been here forever.



In the next hour, I’ll find myself at the Free Speech Movement cafe with a white chocolate mocha, chatting with an acquaintance I always run into when I’m here during the odd hours of the night. Later, I’ll explore the other floors of Moffitt to see if anyone else I know is trapped here too.


Moffitt is my go-to study space. It’s not as depressing as the engineering library and its open hours correlate with my preferred study hours, making it the obvious choice, but I also gravitate towards Moffitt due to its versatility. It supersedes its role as a study area; it functions as a social space.


Located in the heart of campus, Moffitt is the busiest library on campus and sees hundreds of students walk through its doors each day. It features a variety of distinct spaces and, while it often lacks enough tables and chairs to accommodate the campus’s increasing population, Moffitt still remains popular amongst students because of its central location, its 24/7 hours, and its innovative and pleasant aesthetics.


My favorite aspect is its social stratosphere or “Moffitt culture”. This includes running into  friends in the library and getting nothing done that night, meeting new people at three in the morning and forging a strong bond built upon mutual distress and propensity for memes, or even stumbling upon someone from a dark part of your past and relentlessly avoiding them by hiding behind a whiteboard until they leave the building. Other elements of this distinct culture include studying until deliberation, endless hunting for an empty seat, and being shushed countless times on the quiet floor during finals week.


In so many ways, Moffitt is emblematic of Berkeley culture.


In one corner, you have a study group scrabbling away on a large whiteboard and in the other, you have friends sharing gossip. And, in between are the frantic and overworked students characterizing Berkeley’s highly competitive, high-functioning atmosphere. All around, people are engaging in the constant exchange of knowledge and ideas. Nothing is more fundamentally indicative of Berkeley’s truest nature than a space that produces ideas and theories which will, one day, inevitably change the world.


Perhaps, it’s a stretch to say that Moffitt is a great emblem of Berkeley society and an engineer of progress, but, ultimately, it is a fairly cool place. Between groans of “I’m tired of Moffitt” and “not Moffitt again,” I somehow always end up at Moffitt with a coffee in hand, vehemently seeking out an empty seat while the bright lights of the ceiling above me delude my brain into thinking it’s far earlier in the day than it actually is.


Each school has a study space with idiosyncrasies of its own. For many UC Berkeley students, this space belongs to Moffitt, which exists as the paragon of travail. Its multiformity is what manages to establish it as a campus hot spot time and time again. Amidst my complex and manifold emotions towards Moffitt, the truth is that it is and always will be my go-to study space - as long as I can find a seat and someone to share my sorrows with.


Keeping Mum

Keeping Mum

Written By: Aishah Mahmud


I like to talk a lot.


I can talk your ear off about my day, my opinions, my questions, anything and everything. I can talk for days – provided you’re a good listener and I’m comfortable with you.


However, that’s not always been seen as such a great thing.


During one of these long conversations, I was telling my sister exactly what I thought of the person who parked their car in the red zone and forced my bus driver to stop in the middle of her turn because she refused to be responsible for damaging some, and I quote, “incredibly expensive” car. In the middle of my rant, my sister interrupted me to say, “You know, you talk a lot.”


To which I responded by promptly shutting up.


There is little else in this world as discouraging and disheartening than being told by a loved one that you talk too much.         


This wasn’t the first time I’d heard such a comment. I’m often reminded that I am “highly opinionated,” that I become increasingly louder the more excited I get, that I’m a great storyteller - all different ways of pointing out I like to talk. But, like many others, I take criticism personally, and the implication here was that I talk too much.



        And so, I quickly ended the conversation, sprinted through goodbyes and stewed over the following questions:


Do I talk too much?


Does everyone else think I talk too much?


Should I stop talking?


        My immediate reaction upon coming back to my room was that I should ask my best friend what she thought. But despite my confidence in our relationship, I hesitated before texting her. I was scared that in the process of asking, I’d ramble through an explanation, and even more so, that she would say yes.


        Talking to others is my method of processing my emotions, of maintaining my long-distance relationships, of keeping myself happy and sane. But in the span of a few seconds, because of a six-word statement, suddenly I couldn’t talk.


When I did muster up the courage to reach out, my friend replied with a strong no and advised me to ignore criticism unless it was constructive.


        Of course, I knew my sister had no intention of silencing me. She didn’t mean to send me spiraling into a state of insecurity and confusion. But unintentionally, she pushed me to realize why it is important for me to talk.


As a woman of color, I spend a great deal of my life feeling the pressure of silence.

I am reminded time and time again that it’s “unbecoming” to be so passionate, to draw so much attention to myself. I've been silenced by people who think they hold more power and more control over my stories, my thoughts, my emotions – despite the fact that none of these belong to anyone but myself.


Speaking is healthy. By talking, whether it’s a little, just enough, or too much, I learn how to take control of my thoughts and communicate my story and feelings to other people. But, as someone who has had my story told over and over again without my permission ­– by mainstream media, Donald Trump, and Islamophobes for example – it’s about time I learn to take pride in talking, whether it’s on a small scale with people I love, or to a much greater audience.


Beating the Mid-Semester Slump

Beating the Mid-Semester Slump

Written By: Firdausi Sudarmadji


The mid-semester of an academic calendar hits every student in different ways, some more than others. It causes us to skip classes, cram to keep up with the alternate day midterms, binge-watch Netflix and Hulu shows to compete against our Amazon Prime subscriptions (if they haven’t been used already) instead of completing endless assigned readings, constantly refresh Facebook news feeds (as if waiting for a miracle wave of novel gossip!) or procrastinate in some other manner (perhaps by scrolling through last summer vacation’s photos yet again). But fret not, because Threads is here to help! By considering the following five tips, you’ll easily learn to beat the mid-semester slump for good and get back to your best groove!


  1. Shake It Up


With the change of just one preposition in the aforementioned topic subtitle, you may be reminded of Taylor Swift, but the intention here is quite different than getting “Ready For It [mid-semester blues].”


By mid-semester, you’re in a set routine of lecture/discussion/seminar, study session, gym workout or recreational exercise, part-time job duties/lab research attendance, club meeting, sorority/fraternity social, etc. The plethora of activities and “things to do” is endless. The monotony of this standard pattern - which, unfortunately for most, is unlikely to change even on the weekends - could make day-to-day life seem mundane and utterly colorless. Hence, it’s important to spice things up a bit to keep life exciting!  


Sit somewhere different in class and make some small talk with your new neighbor. Share notes together to learn new perspectives, and maybe be a little bold and make them your study buddy! As clichéd as it sounds, moving out of your comfort zone can be quite beneficial, and won’t seem so daunting once you actually do!



So, go ahead and join that new Ilm (pronounced as “ill-m”; it’s Arabic for “knowledge”) class at the mosque or go to your professor’s office hours, even when you have nothing to ask. Perhaps you’ll begin to ace the Cornell note-taking method, or maybe, at the end of it all, you’ll come out a more confident person… or the person you just befriended may tell you a funny story that will make your day and then you’ll never see them again! Even more so, you could also get some new school supplies, change your usual study spot, or make a new homework & study playlist.


2. Dig Deeper

Can’t stay motivated enough to do your work? Questioning why you made the decision to take the class at all? First of all, realize that such seemingly rhetorical questions are perfectly normal to have. Next, take a breather, and go over your notes and articles and find one thing that interests you. Google the topic and dig so deep you find the family tree of the guy who created that theory/book/concept. The key here is to find what interests you. Let that curiosity and passion of inquiry consume you. Delve deep into what floats your boat, and you’ll find that sinking into the dark waters suddenly becomes a lot harder. This will hopefully make studying a little more compelling - and enjoyable!


3. Drop It Like It’s Hot

Too many commitments, and not enough time? Drop those dinner plans to study, and push your study date so you can take a catnap. It may sound counter-intuitive, but forcing your drooping eyes to obey your academic needs and compelling your brain to absorb in information that it’s currently not ready to process, is a sheer waste of time.


Trust Leonardo da Vinci, if you don’t believe my words:


“Study without desire spoils the memory, and it retains nothing that it takes in.”


Take time off work if you need to. It’s not the end of the world if you say no - no matter how much your brain tells you otherwise. Recharge your neurons, and you’ll find that learning that new theory in discrete mathematics was, in fact, easier than you thought. Your relaxation and sleep is important for keeping your mental well-being in-check, and doing so will keep you energized through all your commitments for the week. Health is wealth - especially as a college student.


4. Live for the Weekend

There’s nothing like remembering the day trip to San Francisco you’re taking with your friends this weekend to motivate you to close your Facebook tab and start on your essay (beyond the introductory paragraph). Taking baby steps to productivity will get you through the entire semester, so succeed today, until you get to tomorrow, and then repeat this formula.


For instance, I’ve always been confused on how fraternities pass their classes, but then, I realized a crazy weekend is their incentive to keep their books open during the week. Even low-key plans, such as a take-out dinner or a delectable dessert, can do the trick to keep you sane enough to make it to the weekend.


5. Share Your Pain

Talk to your mom, call up your friends from home, post a tweet. But not for too long! (Keep checking the elapsed time on Facetime, Houseparty - which is the best app of all time since it lets you video call multiple people, or Skype to keep your time in check) They’ll give you tips and tricks to get out of the slump that may actually work for you, and since they know you well, the tips will likely stick for you in the long term. Or maybe they’re stuck in the rut like you, and now you have to keep each other accountable for the assignments you have to complete. Don’t fret, or think; simply dive right into them. Again, think about the joy you’ll feel once you jump back up, out of the slump and prosper once more.


Lastly, believe in yourself and ask others - particularly loved ones - to keep you in their prayers. But still, try not to worry too much.


You’ll be out of this slump before you know it!



those who forget history

those who forget history

History is not a story of ancient wild creatures or strange celestial beings - it is the story of us.

through them

through them

Take some time to get to know the people in each picture.



words | adnan perwez

photos | sania elahi


It was a bitterly cold summer night the first time I went stargazing. The biting wind that twisted its way through the city blocks had pushed aside both the stray leaves on the sidewalk and the clouds overhead, leaving both street and sky palely glowing and utterly clear.

My friends and I had spent the better part of the past hour on those empty streets just getting out of town; our old, worn-out car slowly rumbling past sleepy shops and the seemingly never-ending expanse of the campus. The change, when it came, was striking; dimly lit apartment complexes suddenly gave way to barren, open fields as we finally reached the outskirts of Davis.

The car came to a crawl, before pulling off the narrow road to stop on one of the fields. We got out, shivering—the wind was so frigid that it almost sucked the air out of my lungs. I stepped forward onto the damp earth, my breath coming out in visible puffs as I walked away from the car—and looked up.

Perhaps the feeling that comes closest is that of swimming in a freezing river. If you slowly sink yourself in, inch by inch, you can brace your body and prepare for the inevitable cold. Throw yourself in, however, and the coldness will instead feel like a tangible, physical force, grabbing and pummeling your senses.

If we extend that tired parallel, stargazing would be comparable to hurling yourself into the depths of the Arctic. Suddenly, a thousand points of light from a thousand different directions flare out at you; the entire sky is filled with shapeless, ethereal fire. The great, familiar dull purple-black blanket that has always covered the city’s sky is suddenly ripped away, like a furious magician tearing away the curtain to deliver his final, heart-stopping showstopper—the twinkling, endless forms almost vindictive in their full, merciless glory as your head turns round and round, your eyes futilely trying to find a beginning or a middle or an end to stop, to rest, to focus on. But the stars are too many, and they twinkle and they dance, as the heart, the mind, the eyes, the breath - all are frozen in the frigid air.

What does it feel like to look out into infinity? Countless armies of philosophers and writers have tried to give a definitive, all-encompassing answer. Some state that the entire experience is one of Divine awe and can surely inspire nothing but humility. Others state the opposite—that the grand view does nothing but spur man to greater heights, providing an empty canvas to map his endless ambition onto. Those with a darker, bleaker worldview claim that they find the entire thing unsettling; that the stars remind them of nothing but their own insignificance, and so become an inescapable symbol of meaninglessness and nihilism.

Faced with these wildly different interpretations, it seems impossible to find a common thread that could somehow unify and connect all the clashing views—in fact, the single similar thing is that the views were expressed in the first place. The act of gazing upon the stars seems to evoke some primal, ancient instinct—the need for humans to somehow capture an indescribable experience; to boil it down and distill it into a substance that can be more easily understood and shared. Much like witnessing death or falling hopelessly in love, stargazing is a uniquely universal human experience that appears throughout nearly every major writer and poet’s work, across time and cultures.

Perhaps gazing at the stars reveals nothing more than that which is found when we gaze within ourselves. Perhaps we reflect and project our desires whatever is inside our heart out into the endless skies, and so find the same thing staring down at ourselves when we look up. Perhaps not - perhaps there truly is some type of inherent meaning among the stars, one that silently and even unknowingly affects all human hearts the same, universal way when one first truly looks upon them.
One thing I’ve come to know for certain is that stargazing warps one’s perspective of time. One moment you’re staring upwards; the next you find yourself losing your balance, feet scrambling to catch purchase on the damp earth as you barely stop yourself from falling in time. When you glance upwards again, you’re shocked to see countless of the stars fading, as light starts to bleed in.

And so you turn, hands deeply in your pockets as you walk back towards the car. It’s already packed with yawning friends; you step inside the warm, sleepy interior and close the door. There’s a brief pause; then the silence is broken once and for all as the car rumbles into action, tires scratching against the fields, headlights bare against the thin veil of darkness.

Slowly, the familiar buildings and town start to come back into view, as the gentle babble of conversation starts up once again. But though you’re nodding and laughing along, your face is pressed against the cool glass of the window, heart still reflecting on the memory, eyes still gazing upwards.

Far, far above, the purple-black blanket stretches itself tightly, firmly reclaiming the sky and cloaking any glowing shapes underneath. Farther still, tendrils of pure pink light start to unravel themselves across the horizon, as dawn begins to settle in.

A Tale of Oneness

A Tale of Oneness

By Selem Helil


The summer after my senior year in high school, my parents decided to finally have a long overdue trip to Ethiopia. We hadn't been in ten years. I had only been there for a month when I was seven years old, and the only memory I had was the incessant throwing up from the terrible food poisoning I got. Now that I was older and would be more aware of my surroundings and experiences, I was excited and nervous. Needless to say, it was definitely an interesting trip.

I should preface this by saying that despite having hardly been in Ethiopia, I have always tried to be aware of the culture I come from. I knew the language fairly well because of the time I spent around family, ate Ethiopian food frequently, and kept up with the news there. The moment I stepped out of the Addis Ababa Bole International Airport, I knew there was no way I could have anticipated the differences in life. Non-travelers weren't allowed in the airport, so hordes of people stood outside awaiting friends and family on the side of the parking lot side adjacent to the airport exit. Finding our family in the crowd proved to be more of a challenge than anticipated, but seeing my grandma, uncles, aunts and cousins that I have grown up hearing so much about (despite very limited memories) and being able to see the tears in everyone’s eyes was a surreal moment. I thought I understood itthe immensity of seeing the most important people in your life after years of uncertainty that you ever would. In retrospect, though, I'm not sure I fully understood that moment because my strongest emotions were exhaustion and relief to be off a 20-hour flight.

When we first arrived, strict guidelines were placed on us about leaving the house by ourselves. My parents were staying at my grandma's house, and my sister and I switched between crashing at our grandma's house and our aunt's house. Our nights were filled with laughter, conversation, and games with my cousins, aunts, and uncles, when we exchanged stories about the different lives we lived and discussed politics. After a few days of wandering between the houses, though, my sister and I were eager to see the city beyond our houses. We started by frequenting the gift shop in the neighborhood that my aunt and uncle owned, the coffee house, and the internet cafe across the street. Getting access to Internet would mean buying an Ethiopian SIM card for my phone and paying to fill it daily. Going to an Internet Cafe and sitting at a desktop gave me a reality check as to how modern the technological era we live in is. Eventually, we made our way to Bolethe downtown-esque, modernized district of the city where the best restaurants, hotels, malls and coffeehouses were.

Transportation in the city was a whole other set of customs with many failed attempts before I could finally get anywhere. The Ethiopian roads had hundreds of cars and people maneuvering in the streets with hardly any consideration of lanes, lane changes, signaling, traffic lights, and at times cars were just barely swerving to miss hitting pedestrians. What was even more astonishing was how good the drivers were at it. My parents rented a car, but even they were too scared to drive in Ethiopia after decades of adapting to the calm streets in America. They convinced my uncle to drive them around, and while some days we would all go out to visit distant family friends or get food, most days my dad and uncle would go out with the car from morning until around dinnertime. On those days, my mom would go out with her sisters in something they called a "contract taxi." The idea is similar to how taxis work here, but they would hire the driver for the day and pay him a lot at the end of the day. My sister and I quickly opted out of visiting people with our parents after about a week, and we spent our days hanging out with family, and exploring the city with whoever would show us around. We took the regular "taxis", a system similar to our bus system.

While there was a lot of contrast to life in Ethiopia, the biggest surprise by far was culture. I thought I knew what to expect because I knew the language, but I had no idea how unfamiliar the culture was. I found a community that was much more respectful and family-oriented than I expected, but most of all, it was religiously centered. My family was in Kara Kore, a region that is generally traditional, despite being located in the more westernized capital. It is a predominately Muslim community, but there is a strong Christian population as well. I could hear the adhan from multiple masjids in the yard of our house. On Sundays, I could hear the locals church's Sunday sermons overlap with the adhan at times. Almost all the women, Muslim or Christian, dressed conservatively, covering up their hair, or at least casually throwing on headscarves, and wearing long skirts and sleeves. Because we were in Ethiopia for Eid, I got to be one of the hundreds of people praying on the streets because we couldn't make it to the stadium prayer. I witnessed the amazing sight of thousands leaving the stadium after Eid prayer. Religion is a major part of life in Ethiopia and for me, the highlight was seeing the unity among people with different faiths and practices living as neighbors, despite the world conflicts with religion going on today.

Our trip in Ethiopia lasted a month, but it has continued to stay with me ever since. Long after we had left, the emotion I didn't understand in my families eyes became fears and tears we all shared. It changed my perspective on family, culture, and, more than anything, travel. I used to think a trip to Hawaii or Paris would be the most amazing thing in the world. Of course, the thought of seeing one of the world's remarkable tourist attractions still excites me, but now I see the value of going somewhere, even if it may seem unglamorous. It's about seeing a new culture, new customs, and a totally new world. I had been excited for the reunion with my family, but I forgot just how incredible where I was going would be. We have too long misunderstood the purpose of travel. It may not be about upping your life standards, or enjoying yourself, but rather learning something and humbling yourself with the grandiosity and diversity of the world, and surprising yourself the oneness of humanity.

goodbye and hello

goodbye and hello


It’s been nearly twenty years since Al-Bayan’s first issue was printed. Our purpose has always been to provide the Muslim community with a platform for discussion and expression—a medium through which our voices can be heard. In light of that purpose, we, the Board of Al-Bayan, would like to announce a series of important changes to the publication. These changes are met with unanimous agreement from Board and our advisors, and are as follows:

Our first goal this semester was to give the magazine a clearer identity, resulting in the decision to shift the makeup of our content. For the longest time, Islam and Muslims have been spoken of by everyone but Muslims themselves. Even when Muslim voices do rise up, they are oppositional and reactionary. That is to say, we speak after we are spoken to, usually in defense of our actions, thoughts, and decisions. While this is not always a bad thing and something we often do poignantly, it is nonetheless exhausting. Muslim college students, our main demographic, are often caught in the crosshairs of doing what they want to do and doing what they feel they should do. To contest the notion that the Muslim voice exists exclusively within the realms of politics, oppression, and ideological clashes, we are rebranding our identity from one that contributes to the exhaustion of the Muslim voice to one that frees it. With this in mind, we now welcome a plethora of topics that we cover including but not limited to the arts, spirituality, technology, mental health, opinion, travel, culture, and the list continues. This shift is intended to guide us in retaining our identity as a Muslim publication—a publication written by Muslims, for Muslims.

We also won’t be launching an issue this Fall; this is going to be the only semester in our history that there won’t be a physical publication. This is more of a structural change, intended to facilitate smoother internal transitions and to increase the interactiveness with our readers. Currently, our production timeline is as follows: recruit staff in September, create content in October, print November, and launch late November, early December. This only gives our readers a couple of weeks to read and interact with our content before leaving for break, which isn’t enough because our readers are usually preparing for finals (or should be). Instead of truly provoking thought and discussion from our work, we forget all about it and begin working on the next issue. Instead of publishing at the end of each semester, we’ve decided to begin printing and distributing at the start of the semester, beginning with the Spring 2017 issue. That way we have the entirety of three months to celebrate and discuss the work our staff has produced, and do things like hold discussions and forums to encourage dialogue on ideas. We want reading the magazine to be an active experience, not a passive one, and hope that by distributing earlier in the semester we can better foster our engagement with the community.

Finally, after serious deliberation, we’ve decided to give Al-Bayan a new name. Starting this Spring, we’ll be publishing under the name “threads”. When we describe to our readers, friends, and family what “Al-Bayan” means, we use the words “clarification” and “eloquent speech” to define it, but besides that, it doesn’t mean anything to many of us. It’s simply a name whose significance and meaning we’ve attempted to mold and frame into something that relates to the entire community, but to no avail. We also want to recognize that the Arab-izing of the Muslim community is an issue, and can be alienating to our community members who aren’t native Arabic speakers. We wholeheartedly stand for changing that narrative, and believe “threads” is more representative of both our staff and readers. After making the decision to change the name, the process of choosing the name was more challenging, but many meetings later, “threads” fit the bill. We view our community as together in our solidarity, but unique in our stories and backgrounds. To capture the beauty of such a diverse community, we viewed our community as a tapestry, beautifully woven together in strength and solidarity, with each thread representing each and every member of our community. For these reasons, we have decided to rename the publication from “Al-Bayan” to “threads.”

The magnitude of these changes is driven with the sole intention of being more inclusive and capturing of the diverse community that we cater to. We are still going to host our traditional semester event, scheduled on December 2 from 6:30 p.m. - 9 p.m. at Hearst Memorial Mining Building. 

We invite all of you to come to our Rebranding Event, where we will be talking more about these changes in the company of good people and good food. We will also be showcasing Al-Bayan’s work and previewing thread’s work to build up to a smooth transition. As content creators, we will be presenting visual and audial content at our re-branding event.

We look forward to seeing you at our event, and to continue to serve this community.

With love,
al.b’s board

Tune In

Tune In

by Daniel Diaz


Music is a universal part of human culture that dates back to at least 40,000 years ago in the history of our species. That means music is much, much older than money, older than the written word, much older than agriculture itself!

Both the technological developments in musical instruments and in our modes of consuming it have radically changed throughout the years.  However, while we are voracious consumers of musical entertainment, many of us don’t always have the tools to appreciate the art form fully.  

Here are some things you can do to improve your music-listening experience:

Make music-listening an active experience.

The formats of music-consumption have changed drastically since the turn of the 20th century:  from live performance, to the phonograph, to the radio, to vinyls, to tapes, to CDs, to MP3 players, to internet radio stations.

Each of these changes radically revolutionized the way we listen to music.  During the vinyl era in the U.S., people often held gatherings centered on putting on a brand-new record and listening together over some finger food. Before the rise of the Walkman and subsequent portable music-listening devices, listening to music was relegated to live performances, domestic consumption, and the airwaves.  Back then, you couldn’t walk around with music in your pocket.

Today, music is largely a portable commodity.  

So many of us often listen to music while doing something else: sitting in the car, going out for a run, or doing chores.  Portable music has helped us add a soundtrack to our lives, but may also make us passive music listeners, consuming music as a product rather than observing it as an artform.  The beginning step to improve your music appreciation skills is to try sitting down and putting music-listening at the center-stage of your activities. It’ll sound different.  You’ll be able to focus more deeply on other aspects of the music from the instrumentation to musical qualities like textures and dynamics.


Pay attention to instrumentation.

The technological and performative circumstances of musical groups have shaped the kind of ensembles people put together.  Centuries ago, when European royal courts held outdoor events, musical arrangements often consisted of a brass ensemble, not only out of a need to project louder volumes in an outdoor setting, but also because they could afford to.  Brass instruments can be pretty loud and overwhelming indoors.  By contrast, during more intimate indoor events, ensembles would often consist of stringed instruments and/or piano.  This later came to be known as chamber music, named precisely after the intimate venues in which these ensembles played.  

Similarly, today rock music and electronic music would not be possible without the advent of electricity.  Technological developments in instrumentation both expands the types of music genres that are possible and freezes the genres’ idiosyncratic sounds over time.  Here’s a great example: there was once an instrument that preceded the piano called the harpsichord, which today is largely relegated to Baroque music and doesn’t really enjoy much play outside that genre.  In a way, the instrument froze in time and is largely associated only with Baroque music. Knowing how technology has influenced instrumental arrangements and genres helps us appreciate music more deeply.


Listen for musical qualities.

Incidentally, no matter how soft or how hard you hit the keys in the harpsichord, the strings would be plucked with about the same loudness.  When the piano came along, those tiny little hammers could strike the keys really loudly or really softly, which is how the piano gained its name.   Part of the reason the piano became so wildly popular was precisely because of its wide range in dynamics, or the changes in the loudness in the pitch of a musical track.

Dynamics are one aspect of music that give an emotional flow to a track with its crescendo an increase in loudnessor with its decrescendo decrease in loudness. For example, in Jeff Buckley’s unparalleled cover of “Hallelujah” you can hear a back-and-forth wave of loudness and quietude throughout the track that can give a chilling effect.  Other songs like, “Sometime Around Midnight” by The Airborne Toxic Event have a constant crescendo throughout, where the layers of instrumentation are added slowly as the track gets progressively louder toward its passionate end.

The way that these layers of instrumentation complement each other is referred to as musical texture. When all the parts of a song play the same notes, the texture is considered monophonic.  Polyphonic textures are those that contain two or more melody lines that are relatively independent from each othere.g., in this section of “Stars and Stripes Forever”, the flute plays a separate melody  on top of the main one.  The most common type of texture in popular music is homophonic texture, in which there is one main melody accompanied by a chord structure.  Here’s a good graphic example of the melody “Ode to Joy” played in three different textures.  


Whatever music you listen to, I hope you can take these principles with you and rediscover not only your favorite music, but also new unfamiliar genres with a new depth.  I like to think that, ultimately, “music” is more about an expectation to find beauty, than it is about finding an objective beauty “out there”.  Thus, as we hone these skills of active listening, we also become more ready to find beauty everywhere and also learn to tune in more attentively to the world around us, to that Divine orchestra hidden in plain sight.


Chamomile: On Stigma

Chamomile: On Stigma

by Iman Labanieh


UC Berkeley's student-run mental health campaign is called "Half of Us," referring to how roughly half of college students will face a mental illness at some point in their college career. If it's something that 1 in 2 of us will first-handedly experience, why is it that we still refuse to talk about it? As a Psychology major and aspiring therapist, even I feel uncomfortable talking about my mental health struggles with anyone outside of my closest circle of friends and family—but refusing to talk about such a persistent issue only perpetuates the stigma.

It's true that these conversations are increasingly being brought to light, yet we are still uncomfortable with listening to others' experiences. It seems that, despite the fact that people are dying by suicide (read here for why you shouldn't say committed suicide) every day, we are not ready to have raw conversations about mental illness. As much as we try to tell ourselves that we are making progress, the stigma is still alive and rampant in our communities.

What is stigma?

Stigma: a set of negative and often unfair beliefs that a society or group of people have about something

While research continues to be done on stigma, very little research has been geared toward the Muslim community. However, in one study, South Asians had significantly worse attitudes than Caucasians toward seeking help. Ciftci et. al (2012) write that “differences in stigma level and content have also been identified stemming from class and educational attainment (Phelan, Bromet, & Link, 1998), specific religious beliefs (Wesselmann & Graziano, 2010) and gender (Corrigan & Watson, 2007). The complex interactions between race/ethnicity, gender, class, religion, and health status have nevertheless gone largely unexplored, suggesting a need for more sophisticated intersectional analyses.” This research is important because it empirically proves that some cultures have much higher stigma levels than others and explores the potential causes of this finding.

One of the biggest reinforcers of the mental illness stigma in the Muslim community stems from Muslim parents telling their children that seeking treatment for their mental illness is unnecessary, that the “sadness” or “nervousness” they feel stems from a lack of iman*. This is an argument I have heard far too many times from a number of friends who have confided in me. Parents and community leaders are reinforcing the stigma by claiming that prayer is adequate treatment for mental illness (this argument can lead to self-blame and resentment of Islam, as it is often unsuccessful), and by preaching about how jinn* have possessed the suffering individual. Both of these arguments delegitimize the reality that is mental illness, which most often stems from biological predispositions, neurochemical imbalances, and environmental factors. Interestingly enough, seeking self-care and treatment has always been part of the Islamic tradition; however religious values have long been muddled with cultural traditions, which you can see through other claims such as families not allowing daughters to live on their own or approach potential spouses first. This conflation can go insofar as to how mainstream media paints “honor killings” and female genital mutilation as Islamic acts despite them being solely culture and indisputably condemned by Islam.

Traditional figures are not the only ones reinforcing this societal stigma, the health industry plays a significant role as well. Most insurance companies account for psychiatric disorders but only cover pharmaceutical treatments instead of therapy, despite the fact that Cognitive Therapy and antidepressant medications (which treat both depressive and anxiety symptoms) are equally as effective. Medication is a short-term solution that does not address the root of the problem and does not allow those struggling with mental illnesses the opportunity to talk about and come to terms with their mental health status, while therapy takes longer to have an effect but predicts better long-term outcomes. It is important to recognize that the most effective outcome is always the combination of both antidepressant medications and Cognitive Therapy (DeRubeis, Siegle, & Hollon 2008).

Health insurance companies are profiting from constant prescriptions but are reinforcing the idea that patients should not talk about their illnesses. In other words, people can receive pharmaceutical treatment for as little as $5 a month, but even the best health insurances require a minimum $15 copay for therapy at every session and rarely cover quality, long-term therapy. Mental health has now been so detached from the health industry that it is perceived as something completely distinct from our physical health. While many believe that psychiatric diagnoses stem from early childhood trauma, most are actually due to biological predispositions. Medications change the chemical balances in the body within a few weeks, so many who have an already existing stigma may legitimize it as a physical ailment rather than a disorder that implies a fault within oneself.

(Please note: I am not invalidating the importance of psychiatry and full-heartedly support people reaching out to psychiatrists and their primary care physicians for help. As stated, mental illnesses do have biological bases and medications are highly effective. My issue solely stands with insurance plans only covering psychiatry for profit because this reinforces the stigma of mental illness).

So what can we do?

  1. Educate. Think about it. Read. Research. “What is mental illness?” is one of the most engaging and thought-provoking questions. Mental health/illness looks different in every individual yet the same phenomena are found all around the world (with variations, of course). Understand the resources offered (or lack thereof) in your community. Talk to your parents about what mental illness is. The problems in our communities are oftentimes from a lack of knowledge or understanding.
  2. Seek help. If you are struggling, don’t allow the fear of others’ perceptions to hinder you from getting better. You have the right to treatment. Just as you would see a doctor if you were feeling physically ill, you should see a counselor or psychiatrist if you’re feeling mentally/emotionally/psychologically unwell. Counteract the stigma.
  3. Speak up. Speaking up normalizes a subject that too many are uncomfortable with. I used to avoid disclosing that I get accommodations for a reduced course load, however I have accepted that my anxiety is not a flaw and my anxiety does not define me. I am as hard of a worker and as strong as a person as I have always been. When I began to be open about my experiences, I was pleasantly surprised to be met with so much love and support from all those around me.
  4. Listen. If you sense that someone you know is going through something, reach out. Respect their boundaries, but show them that they have someone there who is willing to listen. Let them know about resources in the area (refer to link below). Don’t allow yourself to feel uncomfortable by listening to someone’s stories, you may be the only person they have to talk to.

Stigma is an issue that has been plaguing our respective communities and not allowing us adequate accessibility to treatment. I hope that this new column can serve as a space to have honest conversations about mental health, help us normalize this topic within our own lives, and destigmatize the utilization of mental health resources.

Much love,


*iman: faith in God

*jinn: evil spirit



Salaam (peace) y’all! I’m an undergraduate Psychology student at Cal and am super passionate about all things mental health. I’ve interned in the mental health department of a non-profit organization in Southern California, worked in two psychology labs at UC Berkeley, and currently serve as the Mental Health Cultural Assistant Director in ASUC Senator Jenny Kim’s office. Post-graduation, I hope to pursue a degree in Clinical Psychology, research the etiology of mood and anxiety disorders, and ultimately practice therapy in the Muslim community.

‘Chamomile’ is Al-Bayan Magazine’s new mental health column that focuses primarily on the Muslim community and my own reflections. If you have any questions or concerns about anything addressed in this article, please do not hesitate to contact me. Thoughts, criticisms, and recommendations are very much welcome and appreciated!

Take the ‘Half of Us’ pledge here: https://www.ocf.berkeley.edu/~mhc/sign-the-pledge/

For resources on the Berkeley campus: https://asuc.org/news/top-10-mental-health-resources/

Khalil Center (Santa Clara): http://khalilcenter.com/why-khalil/

For further reading:

Ciftci, A., Jones, N., & Corrigan, P.W. (2012), “Mental Health Stigma in the Muslim Community” http://quod.lib.umich.edu/j/jmmh/10381607.0007.102/--mental-health-stigma-in-the-muslim-community?rgn=main&view=fulltext

DeRubeis, R., Siegle, G., Hollon, S. (2008). “Cognitive therapy vs. medications for depression: Treatment outcomes and neural mechanisms” https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2748674/




By Ahmad Shami


Beards: man’s personal face carpet. Now, don’t get me wrong, I like big beards and I cannot lie, but there’s a lot that comes with having a beard that people might not expect. Here are 4 things that people with beards have probably had to deal with:


1) The journey to beardhood is a long one.

You don’t get to wake up one morning and say, “Here’s my beard world!” If you want that chin curtain, you have to endure the patchy mess of hair on your face for weeks until it grows out. And there’s nothing to make it grow faster. Believe me, I’ve tried it all. From watering to encouraging to begging to bribing, nothing is going to make that sucker come out faster than it wants to. Some people can’t even get past the patchy stage and are stuck looking like a botched wax job for their entire lives. A moment of silence for those brothers.


2) Maintaining your Crumb Catcher is a pain.

Heed these words: trimming is important. It can make the difference between looking like your neighbors unshorn hedges and Chuck Norris. A good tip is to match the trim of your beard to your face shape. Also, remember to wash it regularly, because who knows what is in there. I once had a spider crawl out. True story. For those that like to go above and beyond, go out and get a nice beard oil. It not only conditions your hair, but it leaves it smelling manly as well.


3) With great beard power, comes great responsibility... as well as associations.

These can range from people assuming you are a lumberjack to people assuming you are a homeless person. In extreme situations, some people might associate you with terrorism, or even worse, being a hipster. But learning to brush off the haters builds character. If that doesn't work, you can give them a solid one-two with your beard.


4) Your Chin Chiller will undoubtedly attract hordes of people.

Whether it be all the ladies trying to stroke your Nair Bear, or all the dudes begging you to tell them how you managed to pull it off, the spotlight will definitely be on you. Those of us with a few years beardsperience already under our belts know to keep a newspaper handy to swat away all the adoring fans.


Bristle sprouts save us from so many of life’s problems. They keep us safe from winter’s cold embrace. They save us countless times by allowing us not to shave. They catch the food that we are unable to get into our mouths. For some of us, they even get people to stop asking whether or not we want to order off the kid’s menu. The benefits are limitless, so if you don’t already have one, start growing.


Note: This is a work of humor; the status of your beard does not determine your masculinity.

Essentials As Told By Al.B

Essentials As Told By Al.B

photos by Zahra Ansari and Ahmad Shami.


Midterm season (a.k.a. the time from your first midterm to your first final) is well under way and we are all feeling it. To kick off the semester and provide a worthwhile distraction from studying, all of us here at Al.B would like to share ten of our favorites that keep us going throughout the semester.


colored pens

have colorful, organized notes even when you can't understand them


sticky notes

stick them on stuff



absolute necessity for telling yourself you are studying but actually on facebook



zone out and get distracted



so you can check those dry notifications


phone charger

you won't need to keep asking everyone around you for their charger


water bottle

stay hydrated and get up every half hour to refill it


blue door cafe

get out of the library to get work done but mostly watch other people get work done


mint mojito from philz

no they're not alcoholic


red bull

consume in moderate amounts

Islam Hates Us

Islam Hates Us

by Sarah Bellal

“I think Islam hates us.”

These words were uttered during an interview with CNN by everyone’s favorite insult-comer-upper, Donald Trump.

Allow me to assure you that it is an utter and complete waste of my time to write about why Trump’s views are problematic.

Freaking duh.

However, I coincidentally saw the headline from the interview while thinking about something that has been racking my brain for months. The last time someone asked if I am “racially Islamic”, I was at workthank Godand I had to suppress my frustrations. But even people who are aware that Islam is a religion are guilty of racializing it.

It is important to note that the racializing of Islam exists outside as well as inside the Muslim community. Those less familiar with the religion can be spotted using “Arab”, “Muslim”, and sometimes even “ISIS” interchangeably (but right now we’re talking about the first two).

“But Sarah!” you rudely exclaim. “Aren’t most Muslims Arab?”

If 15% is most, then yes. Will someone kindly inform the Nobel committee?

The racializing of Islam is manifested in so many aspects of our lives. From asking a woman in hijab where she’s from, to telling Muslims to go back to their country, we see an all too common idiocy incarnated. A piece of fabric is not a birth certificate and believing in God is not a visa.

In the United States specifically, there is a tendency within Muslim communities to divide ourselves along the lines of Arab and Desi. Those who fit into either category participate in the disunification of the ummah, and everyone else is swept under the oriental rug.

Possibly the most detrimental side effect of this dichotomy is the alienation of thousands of Muslims who exist as minorities within their religious communities. Any Muslim will tell you that the last thing they want to do is push someone away from their faith. Any Muslim will express concern over people not wanting to come to the mosque.

And many Muslims still think of their skin color as the default.

The phrase “Islamic culture” is often used to describe something that may very well be nonexistent. It makes very little sense to use it to describe abayas or hummus. The phrase implies that whatever practice being referred to is intrinsically Islamic when it is likely just a cultural component of some predominantly Muslim countries.

The guidelines of hijab can be followed in clothing other than an abaya. Fries are halal, too.

At the root of this issue is our tendency to categorize people for the sake of convenience. I can only draw so many maps in the air to explain how Algeria is in Africa, I have light skin, and I am a Muslim. It is time we stop making sweeping racializations that, with the existence of the World Wide Web, have no valid excuse. Society at large needs to stop thinking of Muslims as people who “come from somewhere.”

Islam is unique in that it is not exclusive to any racial, ethnic, socioeconomic, or regional demographic. What ties Muslims together is not their complexion, but their complexities.

The simple antidote to this problem is to cease the equating of Islam to any race or ethnicity. If you aren’t Muslim, this means acknowledging that being Muslim is a choice and being Arab is predetermined. If you are Muslim, this means remembering that the ummah is more diverse than you can imagine.

Allah Has A Hold On Me

Allah Has A Hold On Me

Can the pain ever become too hard to bear? One student writes of her own pain and how she found healing in Allah.

The Best Damn Lemonade

The Best Damn Lemonade

A graduate reflects on her four years at Cal and the lessons she learned. The author provides us advice, personal stories, and hope for whatever difficulties are to come.